only. friends. will. be. invited. to read.
unless. u wanna read.
then drop me a msg on msn.
:)
the new blog is created.
Sunday, August 23, 2009
people do not care whether or not the facts are true as long as it is juicy and gossip worthy. hence, they tend to ignore the truth and believe the make-believe lies that people spun to spoil other people's relationship. why should i trust anyone when no one trust me? if you want people to trust you, you better start by reflecting on yourself. from now on i give no attention to no one anymore.
from today onwards, i've got no friends. i've given too much to a friendship and all was lost because of someone who is so irrelavent and unimportant. i do not see how important i am to anyone. why should i be? in the first place, i am no one's child. no one's family. no one's friend. no one's partner. i've been through too much shit that no body knows. you might care and ask why i didn't want to share. but the reason will be kept inside me till i die. its too private and too raw to reveal. its a scar that shames me. it will take my life to tell it to anyone.
if you think you know me well, think again.
i'm a sinner at its best. if you wanna think of me. think otherwise. i will not let anyone enter my life again. i will be what i used to be. a bystander, a watcher, an observer and see the world crumble and fall. its okay to be abandoned and dumped by friends. its okay. i'm always the one being ignored and left alone and stuff. b left. jk left.j left. i dun see why i should care anymore.
i wont cry anymore. the heart is as cold as a stone. i feel nothing. but its none of anyone's business. the tears are dried and all there is left is blood. i dun think i wanna pretend i am normal anymore. i still like cutting myself very much. yes i admit. the knife will meet its target again. that is the only way to relieve pain. i dun care and dun want any help from anyone. i'm not sick. i'm not mentally ill. i know what the fuck i am doing. closing myself that is.
don't come and tell me that you care. just don't. cos i don't believe it. i never believed anyone. never since i was 9. and i lost faith with trust when i was 12. lost hope in life when i was 17. lost my mind when i was 21. now, i've got nothing to lose.
nothing is going to affect me anymore.
its ok. i love my perfect fucked up life. it suits me.
:)
i'm closing this blog as well.
i'll create a new one again. :)
2 friends within a year.
OH LIMP PIK RECORDS SIAL.
from today onwards, i've got no friends. i've given too much to a friendship and all was lost because of someone who is so irrelavent and unimportant. i do not see how important i am to anyone. why should i be? in the first place, i am no one's child. no one's family. no one's friend. no one's partner. i've been through too much shit that no body knows. you might care and ask why i didn't want to share. but the reason will be kept inside me till i die. its too private and too raw to reveal. its a scar that shames me. it will take my life to tell it to anyone.
if you think you know me well, think again.
i'm a sinner at its best. if you wanna think of me. think otherwise. i will not let anyone enter my life again. i will be what i used to be. a bystander, a watcher, an observer and see the world crumble and fall. its okay to be abandoned and dumped by friends. its okay. i'm always the one being ignored and left alone and stuff. b left. jk left.j left. i dun see why i should care anymore.
i wont cry anymore. the heart is as cold as a stone. i feel nothing. but its none of anyone's business. the tears are dried and all there is left is blood. i dun think i wanna pretend i am normal anymore. i still like cutting myself very much. yes i admit. the knife will meet its target again. that is the only way to relieve pain. i dun care and dun want any help from anyone. i'm not sick. i'm not mentally ill. i know what the fuck i am doing. closing myself that is.
don't come and tell me that you care. just don't. cos i don't believe it. i never believed anyone. never since i was 9. and i lost faith with trust when i was 12. lost hope in life when i was 17. lost my mind when i was 21. now, i've got nothing to lose.
nothing is going to affect me anymore.
its ok. i love my perfect fucked up life. it suits me.
:)
i'm closing this blog as well.
i'll create a new one again. :)
2 friends within a year.
OH LIMP PIK RECORDS SIAL.
Thursday, August 20, 2009
5.47am.
i just finished another question.
2 down.
1 more to go.
hopefully i can do a decent job for the last qn
i shall sleep now.
nights.
i just finished another question.
2 down.
1 more to go.
hopefully i can do a decent job for the last qn
i shall sleep now.
nights.
Wednesday, August 19, 2009
Monday, August 17, 2009
时间他是个男人
他的力量很神奇，
可说是拥有无穷的治愈力。
他只要不停的前进，
就能带给每个人不同的改变。
无论好，坏，他总是能将人类最原始的心与情感激发出来。
我们是很坚强的。只不过，你们还不懂。
只要接受了他的伟大，
我们就能不停进化，
变得更坚强，更强大。
闭上双眸，我所看到的，还是关于你的事，
不过，他已经在治愈我的心灵。
因为，我不痛了，也不觉得放不下，
但是，我还是无法说出祝福你的话语。
时间，
他会把他的工作做好。
我很放心，因为，不爱你了。
不想你了，也不管你了。
我飞走了。
停顿了五年，也该是时候了。
齿轮的转动，
是必需的。
**********************************************
是我写的。毋庸置疑。
因为最近，朋友们都受了伤，所以我想分享我过去所写的东西。
是过去了，我不再想他了，我过得很好。真得很好，希望大家也一样。
希望尚在人间！
可说是拥有无穷的治愈力。
他只要不停的前进，
就能带给每个人不同的改变。
无论好，坏，他总是能将人类最原始的心与情感激发出来。
我们是很坚强的。只不过，你们还不懂。
只要接受了他的伟大，
我们就能不停进化，
变得更坚强，更强大。
闭上双眸，我所看到的，还是关于你的事，
不过，他已经在治愈我的心灵。
因为，我不痛了，也不觉得放不下，
但是，我还是无法说出祝福你的话语。
时间，
他会把他的工作做好。
我很放心，因为，不爱你了。
不想你了，也不管你了。
我飞走了。
停顿了五年，也该是时候了。
齿轮的转动，
是必需的。
**********************************************
是我写的。毋庸置疑。
因为最近，朋友们都受了伤，所以我想分享我过去所写的东西。
是过去了，我不再想他了，我过得很好。真得很好，希望大家也一样。
希望尚在人间！
Thursday, August 13, 2009
proud of my loneliness III
寂寞是虚幻。狂野是梦想。我是坚强的。。只要相信自己的能力。
我找到了我人生的推动力，那并不是你，不是任何人，而是美妙音乐。
寂寞是永无止境的黑洞，将我吞噬，淹没在比夜还暗的世界。
冷风是刺骨的，是惊悚，是另类。
只要我的心还有一线曙光，就不怕黑暗的袭击。我会加油，保护好我的小小希望。
***
功课让我感到烦躁不堪。好没心思哦~
加油！fight o!
塞啦。
我找到了我人生的推动力，那并不是你，不是任何人，而是美妙音乐。
寂寞是永无止境的黑洞，将我吞噬，淹没在比夜还暗的世界。
冷风是刺骨的，是惊悚，是另类。
只要我的心还有一线曙光，就不怕黑暗的袭击。我会加油，保护好我的小小希望。
***
功课让我感到烦躁不堪。好没心思哦~
加油！fight o!
塞啦。
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